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Thursday, April 05, 2007

-.-" booo.

this wld be an emo entry, just typing out how i feel. rationalizing my thoughts and realising how illogical i can be at times. a contradictory entry, which u may find it difficult to comprehend

contrary to what i have posted earlier, i have not decided to stay in netball. i am fickle minded no doubt cuz there are positive sides in each cca. one cannot have the best of both worlds. i guess for the decision to go for bball, is the passion to play the sport and im nt very adept in netball even aft 1 yr of training. maybe i gave up too easily and tt is why i dint perservere in trying to learn it well.

it is illogical to quit netball at this time cuz tournaments are coming and i hv been in it for 1 yr. i cld have stayed on and support them durg the tournaments. but no i dint. and here i am wallowing in self pity, regretting and not putting my words and thoughts into action.

went for bball trg today, and i duno why but i wasnt as happy as i tht i wld be.. perhaps i miss the camaradie in netball. and the friendships there. the trg. but there's nth i can do but to convince myself that i cant turn back anymore and just face the fact. i mean, humans are social being who likes being ignored? seriously.

the environment may be totally different from netball, the people, the court, the bonding and all, its out of my comfort zone. no matter how i feel, i guess i cant press the 'rewind' button. im nt feeling any better even tho i have quit. in fact, im feeling more sad and depressed as compared to the past whn im in 2 ccas. i hate to make decisions and i made a hasty decision this morning. i need more time to think, but how can time be measured? perhaps im too sensitive in sensing that i have 'lost' the communication wif my previous teammates. but i dont expect them to tlk to me, since im alr nt wif them.

a terrible feeling now. hoping that it will go away soon.


failed 3 H2s and passed 2H1s for block tests, the cohort did relatively bad for block tests. PTM soon. dreads-

squarepants-ed!:D at 11:25 PM :: 0 ComPlaIns ::

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